Happy Monday, beautiful Gems!
I was back at it again with the oracle deck this morning, and today’s check-in with energy is particularly poignant for me as I come up on the three year mark since my Mom passed from this life and returned to God.
I know not everyone has time to watch a nearly 20 minute video, so I grabbed a transcript for those who prefer reading to watching/listening.
ALSO, I’ve gotten a few requests to share my spiritual life updates - specifically, the when, why, and how of no longer practicing religion. I’ve been knowing that I want to sit down and write that up, and well, it seems like this is the month to do that. Stay tuned!
Transcript from my Substack Live (cleaned-up and smoothed out for clarity):
I'm really into this idea of doing Mystic Mondays. I love what we're doing right now with pulling an Oracle card. I'm going to use the same deck (Love Your Inner Goddess by Alana Fairchild) since it's all I have at the moment, though I may expand my collection as we go forward. I made a deal with myself that if I show up consistently and it really becomes a thing, then I'll invest in more Oracle decks.
Today’s Mystic Monday is particularly meaningful to me. March 10th is a very powerful but tender day. Back in 2022, on March 10th, we decided to begin end-of-life care for my mom. She was coming to the end of her battle with COVID, which she had contracted in January 2022. It was a truly torturous battle for her. Ironically, it was due to the infusion treatments she was receiving for multiple sclerosis (MS) that made her immunocompromised. She had been diagnosed with MS when I was two, and despite all of our efforts to keep her safe during the pandemic, her body couldn’t fight off the virus.
On March 10th, three years ago, I attended a book release party for my dear friend Laura Tremaine, celebrating her first book Share Your Stuff. I'll Go First. During the reading, she talked about what happens when the thing you’ve feared most actually comes to pass. It was deeply poignant because, for my entire life, I had been gripped by fear of losing my mom. Since she was diagnosed with MS when I was so young, I had no memory of life without her battling it. When I was a kid, her MS was manageable, and she was highly functioning, but as an adult, it became progressive.
As a child, I remember how anxious I would get when she was out with one of my siblings. If she was late returning, I’d panic, convinced she had been in an accident. That fear followed me into adulthood, and on March 10th, 2022, it was finally happening. During Laura’s reading, I got the call that it was time to come to the hospital. That night, I had the honor of sitting with my mom as she transitioned. She passed away the evening of March 11th.
I didn’t mean to get too heavy on this Monday morning, but this time of year is very tender for me. For those of us who have lost loved ones, there’s something significant about the days leading up to their passing. Maybe our connection to them feels stronger, or maybe our minds are just reliving those memories more intensely.
I’ve talked about this before on Gemini Wrongs, but in a mystical way, I feel closer to my mom now than I did in her last years. By the time she passed, MS had caused severe cognitive decline, making conversations difficult. In my previous Christian beliefs, I thought of death as a separation—our loved ones were in heaven, and we wouldn’t connect again until we joined them. But in my spiritual explorations, I’ve found that after my mom died, I felt like we had a stronger connection.
In the first year after she passed, I would take walks and pretend I was on a phone call with her, just talking to her about everything—parenting, worries about my oldest daughter’s future, relationship dynamics. It was incredibly healing. Whether it was my imagination or her spirit guiding me, I don’t know, but I felt connected to her in a way I hadn’t in years.
For today’s Mystic Monday, I spent some time in meditation and asked for guidance from my mom. I’m using the Love Your Inner Goddess deck by Elena Fairchild again. Last week, I pulled the Psyche card, which had a beautiful message about abundance and trusting the universe to provide. Today, I asked my mom for a message for all of us.
The card I pulled is Princess Savior. It’s a beautiful card featuring a woman with fiery auburn hair, a crown, a bird nearby, and butterflies on her shoulder. My mom loved birds—she spent hours watching them on their back deck, and she always had hummingbird feeders. Her totem was a hummingbird, and just yesterday at an art fair, I saw a display of glass hummingbirds swaying in the wind. It felt like a little wink from her.
The message of Princess Savior is: Even if you feel uncertain about facing a challenge, believe in yourself. You are strong enough to conquer this. If you are in the process of letting go of something—a habit, a relationship, or a situation where you’ve felt trapped—don’t let insecurity stop you. You’ve got this. You are doing the right thing in moving forward.
This message is especially fitting with the full moon and eclipse coming up this week, which are great times for release. It’s also a message I often tell my daughters—you already have everything you need within yourself. Knowing that my mom may have sent that same message today makes it even more meaningful.
If you’re feeling called to let go of something, trust that you have the strength to do so. You don’t need anyone to save you—you are the Princess Savior. Thank you for spending this morning with me. I’ll put this message into a post so no one misses it. I hope you all have a wonderful week ahead, and may you truly feel the spirit of the Princess Savior within you.
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I learned to love a bold lip color from my mother,
Meg
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